Social Gatherings, Conversations and my inner awkwardness :-
One of the most troubling questions I have faced in my life ever since childhood is the following ,
" What to talk with people?"
As I examine myself to the core,I see that I'm a terrible conversation starter . Usually I start with a "Hi!" which is like .. sounds perfect.. clearly heard and loud to me in my mind ,but to the other person it's like " Did you say something to me?"
So clearing my throat I go for a second try "hi" accompanied by a raise and wave of hand and the other person smiles and replies "Hello" and that's it there ends the conversation,with me thinking in my mind "Should I have said something more? Maybe I should have asked How he/she was or How's everything going on? " .... Awkward feeling in my stomach.....
So years back when I stumbled across such a situation in high school I had a solution . And this time too like every time the solution came from math.
" Consider two sets I and U , I denotes the set of all my interests and U denotes that of the other person . So a conversation would result when I ∩ U ≠∅ ."
So with this I moved forward and noticed that
Card(I∩U) ≪ Card(I) ,
Card(I∩U) ≪ Card(I).
The commonalities at that time was only few things like watching dragon ball Z and other CN shows and of course interest in Science especially Physics and Math.
As years passed by while looking at people I somehow tried the science of Deduction every time as recommended by sherlock. It's often like putting together bits of info. It's like solving a jigsaw puzzle . The bits of info. often came from social networks like fb, and info. overheard from people.
Most of the time it came true . To me it was like playing the Game "Watch Dogs" everyday.
Till today social interactions often leave me rather puzzled. To me at the end of one , it gets recorded and starts playing @ HD 1080p in my mind in a loop . Until an hour or so with awkwardness filling in me every time .
It's as in the movie "Beautiful mind" it makes me Terrified ,Mortified , Petrified,Stupefied .
Somehow talking to people about Hecke Algebras,Non-Trivial Zeros of Riemann Zeta Function,The method of Lagrange Multipliers,Importance of Feynman Diagrams,Evolutionary Game Theory... Random Mumblings about a new theory has become far too easy than to put a smile and talk about a new Fiction novel, Latest Movie ,Hit song of the year,IPL or Cricket
( Even while writing this my mind thinks of Duck worth lewis method ,Batting Stats,Harmonics,Matrices in special effects in movies,Misprints in a book -Poisson Distribution. ....... hmpf.) .
So till today a relationship with anyone has become a "Game" to me.
The word "Game" is taken in sense of a mathematical Game. It will be clear to anyone who has seen Numb3rs:
I do sometime feel that
" It's easier to understand a Millennium prize problem than to get socially involved ."
I might be wrong (as my intuition of a Cooperative Game says so) but I think I may change over the ages....
One of the most troubling questions I have faced in my life ever since childhood is the following ,
" What to talk with people?"
As I examine myself to the core,I see that I'm a terrible conversation starter . Usually I start with a "Hi!" which is like .. sounds perfect.. clearly heard and loud to me in my mind ,but to the other person it's like " Did you say something to me?"
So clearing my throat I go for a second try "hi" accompanied by a raise and wave of hand and the other person smiles and replies "Hello" and that's it there ends the conversation,with me thinking in my mind "Should I have said something more? Maybe I should have asked How he/she was or How's everything going on? " .... Awkward feeling in my stomach.....
So years back when I stumbled across such a situation in high school I had a solution . And this time too like every time the solution came from math.
" Consider two sets I and U , I denotes the set of all my interests and U denotes that of the other person . So a conversation would result when I ∩ U ≠∅ ."
So with this I moved forward and noticed that
Card(I∩U) ≪ Card(I) ,
Card(I∩U) ≪ Card(I).
The commonalities at that time was only few things like watching dragon ball Z and other CN shows and of course interest in Science especially Physics and Math.
As years passed by while looking at people I somehow tried the science of Deduction every time as recommended by sherlock. It's often like putting together bits of info. It's like solving a jigsaw puzzle . The bits of info. often came from social networks like fb, and info. overheard from people.
Most of the time it came true . To me it was like playing the Game "Watch Dogs" everyday.
Till today social interactions often leave me rather puzzled. To me at the end of one , it gets recorded and starts playing @ HD 1080p in my mind in a loop . Until an hour or so with awkwardness filling in me every time .
It's as in the movie "Beautiful mind" it makes me Terrified ,Mortified , Petrified,Stupefied .
Somehow talking to people about Hecke Algebras,Non-Trivial Zeros of Riemann Zeta Function,The method of Lagrange Multipliers,Importance of Feynman Diagrams,Evolutionary Game Theory... Random Mumblings about a new theory has become far too easy than to put a smile and talk about a new Fiction novel, Latest Movie ,Hit song of the year,IPL or Cricket
( Even while writing this my mind thinks of Duck worth lewis method ,Batting Stats,Harmonics,Matrices in special effects in movies,Misprints in a book -Poisson Distribution. ....... hmpf.) .
So till today a relationship with anyone has become a "Game" to me.
The word "Game" is taken in sense of a mathematical Game. It will be clear to anyone who has seen Numb3rs:
I do sometime feel that
" It's easier to understand a Millennium prize problem than to get socially involved ."
I might be wrong (as my intuition of a Cooperative Game says so) but I think I may change over the ages....














